Why do I play with this keyboard and mouse???
I sit here all day, never leaving my house...
My wife would say "It's like an affair..."
I sit here and play all the games she despairs...
So, why do I play with this keyboard and mouse???
Because realities not real inside of my house...
Red is the color of blood and pain,
of love and hate; to kill and maim.
The crimes of passion shall never rest,
I'll always hold you inside my chest.
In a hole that has turned black,
It won't be red till I have you back...
I take head of my eyes as the follow the smooth lines of your face, your lips, and your smile.
Though, when I look at you, my heart grows cold; because I know that I can never have you.
But, if I was able to tame the wildness that is your heart, would you have me?
Would you watch the snow fall with me in the dead of winter?
Would you lay with me and watch the stars spin overhead on a cool summer night?
And, I know that if you were to allow me to kiss you, in that fleeting moment, you would be mine; and I yours.
What I speak is the truth, and you must believe me when I say that I have always and will al
if you hit me i will bruise
if you cut me i wiill bleed
if you leave me i will die
all the things you do hurt me
i know i have hurt you before
but how can i ask for your love
when your in pain i comfort you
when i'm in pain you torure me more
i am not going to take it much longer
but, when i think about it quietly
there is nothing i can do to you
that you have not already done to me
all of the pain, all of the torture
it adds up inside of me
i need a release from your kind
just let me be free...
Darkness rises
Hearts weaken
Blood chills
I thought he wouldn't be home until later
Once inside
He screams
I break
His words are brutal, his hands are murder
The crying
The pain
All over me
He always does this, I need to get away...
Why won't you take me into your bed?
Why don't you hold me high over your head?
You leave me wondering, "What have i done wrong?"
You leave me here waiting, singing this sad song.
I want you to come with me into my life.
I want you sitting here by my side.
Why can't I come over; will your father not allow?
Why don't you see me, right here, right now?
We wave our flag's, we sing our songs,
we do what's right, you still make wrongs.
We march, we sing our anthems loud,
but for this country we're not proud.
What more would you have us do?
We kill so much, it's all for you.
Our men have courage, they are not scared.
Tell them the truth, they'll be prepared.
Once more we march into the fray,
I doubt we'll last another day...
Take my hand now gentel child,
I will lead you to the wild.
We'll teach you how to shoot a gun,
We'll tell you, "Killings lots of fun."
You'll be in there all alone,
You'll probably never make it home.
We told you that our cause is great,
So what more is there to debate?
Go now son, you'll surely perish,
Go now son, if this country you cherish...
Blue is the sky and the sea below.
It turns from white to black and froths to and fro.
It reaches for the sky but turns back to the sea.
It falls to the sea save only when grey sets it free.
At night it becomes dark with shimmering lights.
From the sea it rolls up to the sky and takes flight.
It is put into us and us into it.
Though we go willing, it can start a fit.
Blue is the sky and the sea below.
The first will disperse, while the other will grow.
Lying in bed I feel so free
Laying here next to you I can be me
With your body close to mine
And our bodies intertwined
Its so crazy what you do
I only wish the best for you
Now I know your love is mine
And we'll be together for all time
I am sorry for all the times I left you alone under the black night sky.
You looked so peaceful so I did not wake you, and now I have gone
Though as time goes by I will feel as if you were just a dream.
A dream I dared not awake from for the fear of losing your memory entirely.
But you are the one I love and for the first time it makes sense, what you love you can never obtain.
Soon I will leave and I will forget all we have seen and felt with one another, while you are left here all alone.
My only regret is that I couldn't tell you this sooner,
that I couldn't tell you that I loved you then, as I do now.
A day full of love and cheer,
but one boy, oh yes, he fears.
That he will reciave a no,
the girls they always make him woe.
Now only if he would use,
the one gift she would never refuse.
With his touch soft as a dove,
he gave her a ring, bound in love.
And so they went happily along,
singing a lovely Valentine's Day song...
Came with me, they
followed behind me, they
ran toward me, they
stood beside me, they
died before me, they
helped kill me.
Beat me, they
all tortured me, they
all cut me, they
all hurt me, they
all struck me, they
all began killing me.
Defiled me, they
diseased me, they
plagued me, they
coroded me, they
infected me, they
finally killed me.
They saved me,
I can't run now...
Take a look around you girl, look at all those people watching you, everything you do.
Take a look around you boy, look at all those people wanting to, be like you.
No one will surpass your potential, you will go on you will live forever, oh yeah.
You will never stop fighting, never waivering and never dying, for all time.
Your the heroes of your generation.
You will live in admiration.
Take a look around you girl, look at all those people wanting you, to pull through.
Take a look around you boy, look at all those people hoping you, don't fall too.
No one will surpass your potential, you will go on you will live forever, oh yeah.
You
I try so hard to keep breathing,
The gun in my hand looks so good.
It's as though life lost its meaning,
But in my mind I keep seeing you.
I fall on my knees and I keep begging please,
Why won't life just go away?
Still I lay down each evening and shake off the feeling,
Knowing I'm lying with you.
You are my world,
You are my life,
Without you there is no light.
I need you to live,
I need you to breathe,
Without you there is no me.
And so the gun falls,
Kisses felt, tears roll.
Your voice softly calls,
"I love you" and that's all I need to know.
Current Residence: Hackettstown, New Jersey Favourite genre of music: rock Favourite photographer: Xsavior Favourite style of art: anthro Operating System: windows vista, oooh ahhh MP3 player of choice: I'm still rocking the CD Player, and it's a SONY if ya gots'ta know!!! Shell of choice: Wow there skipper, I'm no turtle here!!! Wallpaper of choice: What? My rooms painted... Skin of choice: My own I would hope... Favourite cartoon character: Trunks, inuyasha Personal Quote: "Back home in Illinois, it's 'corn bread' and 'chicken'!"
hello my friends...
so its been almost a year since my last entry here, alot has happened...
my love of 11 months broke up with me for a 25 year old, her and i are 19, shes actually only 1 day older than me...
they broke up last week n now shes running back into my arms saying shes sorry n that i deserve someone better than her, but what can i do when shes crying and says all that shit that makes your heart bubble n your eyes get wet...
as for me, i have my lip peirced now, i really like it, its in the same spot as tom delounges from blink-182.
i have a tattoo on my back, and one on my right elbow now also, i think the only reason i got
wow, its been a while since the last entry...
so, since then, Rachel is no longer in my life, and neither are any of those other idiots i used to hang out with.
i started dating Kasey Clayton in january of 05, we broke it off in the beginning of March. we were just too different for one another i guess...
so, then i started dating Dianna Cameron, we're still going out.
it was or two months May, 20th, that was the day of prom too... could it get any better???
if any of you have heard the song 'God, bless the broken road- by: Rascal Flatts' i think of her every time i hear it. i'm so in :love: its great!!!
anyway, i really took to poetry
He's gonna pay for your cooking school?...Thats awsome! Shits going pretty bad for me too, And i live out on my own too. Sleeve as in whole arm or just part of it?
hey my aunt told me you called the other day, but i didnt get home till late...sorry i didnt call right back. whats the time diff? i dont wanna call at like midnight or something. I usualy work 10-6 everyday....friday im going to movies so wont be home.